The Power of Loss

Tonight's sudden overhaul and site
update is in no small way linked to
the hacking and subsequant loss
of the Haven in the past few days.
Firstly, if you're desperate to get
the boards back, see the front page
for our temporary home.

I want to explain what's led to this
site slipping into disrepair.  Simply
put, I've had a bad year.  Money, work
and social problems have made me
miserable, tired and artistically
uninspired.  I've been drifting around
in the post-TheShowHasEnded haze,
a lone phile with no direction and
a big frown on my face.

In September I went to university.
This marked my entrance to the
wonderful world of 24-hour
broadband computer labs, where I
suddenly decided one day to join
the Haven boards.

And everything became clear to me.

The key to my existence, the thing
that keeps me even and balanced, is
talking about the X-Files with other
philes.  It brings my soul to life,
inflames my heart with passion, wakes
me from my daze.  If it's possible
to be in love with a TV phenomenon,
I plead guilty, your Honour.

I'm writing this watching Hellbound
(the only way to watch s9 is to do
something else at the same time)
after talking with many philes
on the temporary Haven boards.
Right now, with some malicious
fool's handiwork having robbed
us of our meeting place, that 
X-Files spirit is running strong
through us.  We fight.  We do not
give up.  We hold onto our show,
whatever is thrown at us.  We will
never give up on a miracle, as long
as we have each other.

I am part of this community and it is
time for me to stand up and be
counted.  I am not physically able to
update often due to my university
arrangements, but whenever I can,
I will do whatever I can to hold
this community together and be a
part of the amazingly special
something we have created for ourselves.